I had a dream this morning that I was holding Silas. That I didn’t want to put him down, that I couldn’t put him down because if I did, he would disappear. I fed him real food and then he started choking and I had to save him with the Heimlich maneuver. I said to my sister in law Melissa “I guess I shouldn’t have fed him real food.”  Then I put him down to sleep and I woke up with my arms empty.