I’m not sure how to do this, what to call it or how to get through it. The anniversary of Silas’ birth and death is on Friday which means I am a year deep into this nightmare and still mostly lost.
Our plan is to spend time away with my brother’s family, up in New Hampshire. Their house is cozy and safe, tucked onto a hillside in the midst of trees and trails, the canopy of stars endless above.
9 comments
Comments feed for this article
September 22, 2009 at 7:39 pm
Mel
I’ll be thinking of you two all week.
September 23, 2009 at 7:54 am
mkwewer
Honestly, it’s the time leading up to “the day” that hurts more than the actual “day.” I cried every day for the week leading up to the boys birthday but on the actual day, I felt calm. I thought about how much I loved them and loved being pregnant with them and instead of being sad, it made me smile. I hope you have some smiles on Friday.
September 23, 2009 at 1:14 pm
Tracy
I hope you are able to find some peace and connect with Silas this week. We will be thinking of you guys and will be sending love to all of you as we sit under his stars in his candle lit rock garden. Let us carry some of your burden and ease your heart.
We love you–
xxoo
September 23, 2009 at 1:39 pm
Kristina
We are always here for you, wanting nothing more than to be able to ease your pain and soothe your heart….still so sorry Silas is not in your arms where he belongs.
(((HUGS)))
September 24, 2009 at 3:46 am
B
I’m also thinking of you.
Perhaps each one of those stars is one of our thoughts for you at this time.
B
September 24, 2009 at 5:18 am
Childwoman
I just read your blog from start. This is the third time that I’ve read your entire blog.
Trying to comprehend and feel your pain. It leaves me breathless everytime…
I wish I could say something to give Lu and you eternal comfort and peace. But I can only offer my prayers, hope and the faith.
Hugs
Childwoman~
September 24, 2009 at 3:21 pm
littlebluebirdsfly
Thinking of you all.
September 24, 2009 at 6:18 pm
Cara
Oh Chris and Lani – I can’t believe the time has eroded like this. A year since your world cracked. A year since we ‘met’. A year, but a minute, as we miss your son right along with you.
xoxo
September 24, 2009 at 7:59 pm
cs
Thinking of you both as today slips into tomorrow….. I hope you can find some comfort and peace with each other, family, the trees and stars.